Three Poems by RC deWinter

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slice from the pi of life

it’s snowing like hell
and the wind is a servant
straight from the palace
of the snow queen
that bitch
but i’ve plenty of wood
and four packs of smokes
a half-bottle of bourbon
and this morning’s coffee
sure the bathroom’s unheated
the bedroom a tomb
but the power’s still on
(but who knows for how long?)
still i sit in the dark
the lamp just expired
and there’s only the one
in this cavernous room
poets have been known
to finish it all
on evenings like this
but not i
no
tonight i will melt
into shadows and smoke
what more could a
poor matchgirl want?

the dress i left behind

once upon a fairy tale
i had a satin dress
it fit me like a second skin
glittering scales clung to every curve
stainedglass ripples falling past my waist
i felt so beautiful and free
a mermaid in the ocean of the world
i wish i had that dress today
i’d slip it on and swim away

backsliding

yes
i know i said i was done with you
that i’d never write about you again

but i keep thinking
if only i’d been able
to show you my heart

really show you

unzip my skin
and let you hold it
pulsing with everything
you aroused in me
maybe
that might have made a difference

words are frail things
and too often
i do not fit them properly to their purpose

you know what they say about pictures
and their power over words
so maybe
handing you my heart
so you could see and feel its reality
might have made a difference

because god knows
i could not say whatever it was
you needed to hear
it was like
trying to describe the sunset
to a blind man
and oh how blind you were
to the truth of what i felt

but then again
perhaps
being who you are
you would have clapped
your great strong hands together
and
never giving a thought
to its shy delicacy
crushed it
that quivering thing
that once upon a time
held small treasures
offered only to you

still
i wonder

yes
i know i said i was done with you
that i’d never write about you again
curse me for the weak vessel that i am
because still
i wonder

RC deWinter is a Connecticut writer/digital artist whose poetry has been anthologized in “New York City Haiku,” published by the New York Times, and in “Uno: A Poetry Anthology.” Her poetry has appeared in print in 2River View, Pink Panther Magazine, Another Sun, Plum Ruby Review, Garden Tripod, The Gall and in numerous online publications for two decades.

Her art has been published in print, online and also used as set décor on ABC-TV’s “Desperate Housewives.” She is proud to be the first digital artist invited to exhibit at the Arts of Tolland Gallery in Connecticut.

@RCdeWinter

https://rc-dewinter.pixels.com/

Three Poems by RC deWinter

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Clichés for a Cliché

I see you
dancing, strutting in
your glad rags,
trying to
captivate me with your charm,
considerable
as it is.
You’ve got it down pat,
smooth, seamless,
with all the right words tripping
off your silver tongue.
But I’m a
tough customer who’s
been around
this block more
times than I care to admit.
I’ve met you before,
in other
places, other lives.
You’ll need a
new trick up
your sleeve to convince me you’re
worth undressing for.

hunger pains

life these days is no banquet
the cupboard hangs open
bare of all but salt for the wounds
the table a muckle of crumbs
of stale memories
floor littered with crusts
of experience smeared with the goosegrease of foolishness
don’t bother opening the fridge
i know it hides nothing
but rotting expectations
and sour dreams left too long
in storage
i wonder how long
it takes to starve to death

shutting up

if you knew
how you affect me

(i know you don’t
i haven’t shown you)

too many times has revelation
held me up a laughingstock
i remain silent

undressing the heart is freighted with intimacy
so often rejected for one reason or another
now i choose to be the one to receive revelation

i realize i could spend my life
in one mexican standoff after another
that’s a risk i’ll take

i’m through with confession
you’ll have to be the brave one now

RC deWinter is a Connecticut writer/digital artist whose poetry has been anthologized in “New York City Haiku,” published by the New York Times, and in “Uno: A Poetry Anthology.” Her poetry has appeared in print in 2River View, Pink Panther Magazine, Another Sun, Plum Ruby Review, Garden Tripod, The Gall and in numerous online publications for two decades. Her art has been published in print, online and also used as set décor on ABC-TV’s “Desperate Housewives.” She is proud to be the first digital artist invited to exhibit at the Arts of Tolland Gallery in Connecticut.

@RCdeWinter

https://rc-dewinter.pixels.com/

Three Poems by RC deWinter

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the scholar of loneliness

the scholar of loneliness is dead
but what is the world without someone to
illuminate that dark corridor

and so being well acquainted with the subject
volunteer to take that mantle
wear it
write of its empty geography

those of us familiar with it
attempt to fill it with speculation
fantasy
despair and hope

the stray seed with no firm core
is always a lonely soul
those with roots have a hard time understanding that

but if you too are a transplant
and so often transplants find themselves in foreign soil
you carry that knowledge in your bones
the disconnect from nourishing ground
history
surety

all hail the new scholar of loneliness
intimately acquainted with that darkness
who will walk that corridor with you
together yet separate
in our individual hells

audience non-participation

i lounge in my corner of the universe
louche long lazy
watching the endless performance
of the human comedy
but i’m not laughing
knives flash silver in the moonlight
and another innocent falls bleeding
but i’m no hero
i laid my sword down long ago

swiveling my head
i focus on the people
dancing on the graves
of children who starved
while grain rotted in warehouses
the pope said mass
and functionaries initialed
documents full of promises
they never intended to keep

if i had any ambition i’d get up
and change my seat but i’m not sure
that would make any difference
so i order another drink
and then another
and wonder why nothing’s changed
in hundreds of thousands of years
maybe it’s this hundred proof
we’re all sucking down

hell’s kitchen

what with the constant wind
deafening in its ferocity
hell is a cold but elegant place

it’s a challenge
to arrange a comfortable spot
in which to pass eternity

but it can be done

one must be careful
not to sit too close to the edge
of the canyon of angels

every so often one explodes
sending a blizzard of feathers
up into the wind

which then
plasters them in your face
and trust me there is no hell

like burnt feathers up your nostrils
in your tongue sandwich
all over your little black dress

but overall it’s not so bad

not that it’s exhilarating
but the tales of the despair of the damned
are gross exaggerations

truthfully the worst thing
about eternal damnation
is the food

and your punishment
is being served the same thing
at every meal

take me
i was a terrible liar
terrible as in constant and convincing

consequently i get a tongue sandwich
morning noon and night
disgusting but not as bad as some

killers get blood pudding

whatever’s leftover from yesterday
goes to thieves and so on
it’s all geared to your worst behavior

keep this is mind because
guess what
you’ll be here too

i call it hell but really
it’s just where everybody goes
the gang’s all here

and all the devils are chefs

no pitchforks just forks
and carving knives and ladles
and they’re damned too

because they cook the same thing every damned day

if you were hoping for pie in the sky
forget it
there’s no dessert in the afterlife

but believe me
once you get used to the wind
and the food you’ll be fine

RC deWinter is a Connecticut writer/digital artist whose poetry has been anthologized in “New York City Haiku,” published by the New York Times, and in “Uno: A Poetry Anthology.”  Her poetry has appeared in print in 2River View, Pink Panther Magazine, Another Sun, Plum Ruby Review, Garden Tripod, The Gall and in numerous online publications for two decades. 

Her art has been published in print, online and also used as set décor on ABC-TV’s “Desperate Housewives.” She is proud to be the first digital artist invited to exhibit at the Arts of Tolland Gallery in Connecticut.

https://rc-dewinter.pixels.com/